today has just been a very bad day.
i guess. its just. the little things that accumulated.
sighs.
maybe im just moodswinging.
wadever.

leaving on friday :D
and my bag still stinks. ive been trying to get the smell out, but its not working.
rawrr.

oh wells.
i never thought i would get pissed off at you.
even though you're not in spore anymore.
sheesh.

im not done with my research.
im only at the 3rd video for totoro, and 35 for bleach.
notimenotime.
i intend to watch howls moving castle on the plane :D
my sister was like. "since WHEN were you interested in anime"
lol. JUST.
oh wells.
i still have so much to do for research.
sighs.

have i ever mentioned that i dun enjoy weekends? sighs
anyways. my last week in church for the next 1month.
oh wells.
falling sick.
no energy to bother about blogging. but. i figured. this blog's really stale.

japan on friday!:D
cassie said that i was one of the less enthu ones ==
haha. maybe!:D
i havent finished packing. nvm. i shall pack tmr:D
havent thought of wad bag to bring. as in. hand carry.
oh wells.
im so glad im leaving on friday.
fridayfridayfriday.
goodbye goodbye goodbye.


so frustrated.
so annoyed.
rawrr.
goodbye

rawr. someone happily went to unplug all the things off my computer, and left them there. sheesh. inconsiderate people.
and i cant be bothered to fix them bak cos i cant find thing. sigh.

had KFC with grace today.
returned report book
watched a movie, and skit.
and then there was house elections.
Ms Or has started to be nice, and started taking attendance herself.
so. every morning, i just dun care about the clipboard. whee(:

had a farewell for Mrs Yee yesterday.
it was so. interesting.
i'll really miss her.
my pri2 form teacher, and my captain since pri2.
have been with her for close to 9 years.
i guess i really agree with Nava's testi.
her little certs really made the touch.

fun fair today. sighs. it was literally just waiting for 1pm to come.
went down to the canteen thrice,
sat with teng and cheryl and joy, in the quadrangle for a while,
got my very nice present from Esther(: thank you!(:
played with balloons, and. i suck at tying such knots.
walked around the whole place once.
i find the Big Red Bad Sale super interesting. lol.
oh wells.
basically, it was just. boring.

then. had lunch at cine with LP and tiffany.
it was soo nice
and they soo nice(: accompanied me all the way to town just for lunch. hee.
thank you!(:
SEE. its not me fault ok. you guys got to eat the nice nice food!:D

report book tmr.
sighs. no comments.

i realise,
after next week, i wont be going to church for a whole month!
wow. a whole month. i know i'll be missed!:D
sighs. i'll be missing out on 2 camps.
rawrr.
im still debating if its worth it. if not, it would disturb me like anything.

i feel so proud of myself. i borrowed 2 books from the library about jap(:

oh wells. going on the change my blogskin.

results really suck.
but after all, its my fault. cant blame anyone or anything.
its just. me.
sighs. everyday, i just go about playing around, but i keep trying to tell myself i only have a month left. horrendous results.
im so dead. sighs.
i guess. just. face the music?

yesterday, during CCA checking, i decided to open up the bible cos we were just waiting for the rest to come in.
opened up to Proverbs and the verse that hit me was "Lazy hands make a man poor, but diligent hands bring wealth."
well, i guess. i was too lazy. either that of my brain's just not good enough. which is rubbish cos everyone has the same brain. (sort of)
SO. i'll TRY to be diligent:D sighs. keyword is try.
temptations are always there. and its often that i succemb to temptation. rawrr.

failed 3 subjects. over all. is. freakin' low.
i keep asking myslef which part went wrong.
went to ask my "tutor" and he said it was time management.
i agree to that. time management. i suck at that.
i plan everything, and follow it for the first 3 hours.
then i go off. totally go off.
rawrr.

went for the parents briefing today.
was not bad.
and my mum started a friendship with Jasmine's mum.
it was really interesting.
oh wells.

scheming little person

i think. the key thing is that i havent worked hard enough for this year.
for the whole year.
especially term 3 and 4.
and without consistency, its not gonna go far.
yeah. my dad happily asked me to slack for this year. like fail everything, get F9s then choing next year for the last 6 months.
i dunno if it was sarcasm, or an encouragement.
wadever.



" For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

thanks for always being there, and being such a nice friend(:<3>

7:27 AM

carried my first nephew today!:D
lol. felt ultra nice holding him :D
my first carry of my first nephew.
whee. felt so good. XD
the 5 month old kid.
it was so weird trying to convince myself he's a guy, cos he was wearing orange.
and even harder to convince myself that he's my nephew.
lol. im an aunt.
wheeee.
feels so. good. X)

raiding my cupboard, i found so many clothes! i never knew i had so much clothes.
i was trying to see if i needed to buy more clothes for the jap trip, and.
i realised, that i have alot of clothes!
lol. wow. oh wells. i still need to go shop.
i realise, i have no money. i better start saving.
sighs. no moneyy. wanna sponsor my shopping?:D

the fragility of the little life.
i really cant imagine. from a little egg, so small, and suddenly, after a few months, its a living thing, with just the smallest wants. to eat, sleep, and pee.
the different little facial expression. the little twitch eye, the little sheepish smile, the contented laughter, the amazed eyes. oh gosh. the littlest things.
it makes the whole child a masterpiece.
the first great grand child of the family. man. i think he's gonna be a lucky child. a good looking one too
all the hopes, pinned on him. but he has a pretty cocky name. lol.


teng: haha. im not rich! im not im not im not.
haha. i think i'll just be laughing at your new hairstyle.
lol. oh wells. where did your tagboard go??

lipin: im not arguing, and im not rich. fullstop..

today didnt feel like a saturday at all.
it lacked the "saturday" feeling.
feels like. a public holiday, which is NOT on a sat.
sighs.
happy hari raya(:

went to the club today,
and feel asleep right infront of my relatives, in the most unglam manner.

i cant stand my hairrrrrrrr.
i cant even tie it properly!!
rawrrr.

wadever.

remember to do your surveys ppl.

caro: yeah. i think we've drifted too. oh wells. there's always the hols. and. we can always catch up with each other. i wanna see your chopped hair!! lol.

totally slacked today.
somehow, i just feel ultra guilty. lol.
oh wells.
had a haircut, bought lots of stuffs. and watched the DVD of corpse bride. lol.
its really good. was admiring the animation even after watching it.. twice? lol.
its really good. X) totally enjoyed my little movie myself.
couldnt go sushi-ing cos. my mum wanted me to have lunch with her.
so. i had the seafood platter at Fish N co. and it was good. X)
oh wells.
missed the meeting this morning cos. of. some apparent reasons.
oh wells.
hope Mrs Tay don't mind. ><


i kinda dread the night.
tmr's sat already. and guilt's stabbing me.
its freakin' near.
and i really really wanna go.
it'll end by 6.
really. i'll leave by 6.
rawrrrr.
i want i want i want.
please?

yeah.when the lady was doing my hair, she was quarreling with my mum about how the hair should be cut, when she already started cutting my hair.
somehow, whenever i go there, they would just start quarreling. lol. real interesting.
but then again, while she was cutting my hair, all i could say was. oh gosh. rawrrr.
sighs. my hair is ruineddd
rawrrrr.

feels so good today.
starting to slack like anything. yeps. it felt so good today. with no worries or anything.
lol. i love m new blogskin.
so cute. X)

went for breakfast today. it was super. disappointing.
i wanted to eat kway chap. the shop wasnt open.
i wanted to eat fish noodles. it was sold out.
then i had to settle for fried carrot cake.
anyways. i met lao shi and her husband there. haha.
i recognised her shirt first, then her. lol.
she can hide very nicely behind her fat husband, even when she's pregnant.
lol.

im still thinking whether to go to school or not.
heh. cos. im lazy. lol.
i shall. erm. see tmr. haha.
oh wells.

i need to shop. real badly. X)



你想做什么都行
我问心无愧
我觉得我什么都没做错

its over!!
yepyep. its FINALLY over.

its OVERRRRRR.
woots. its like. finally.
after waiting since so long ago, its finally over.
i came back home today, and sat down, and wondered. wad's the exam tmr?
*stood up, and walked to my study table* OH WAIT! haha. no exams. its over.
and i started laughing at myself. lol.
this round of exams is really an eye opener for me. it hink im just slow or something.
first time i got stressed,
first time i actually EVER waited for a day so much i couldnt feel that that day had come.
and so many so many more first times.
lol.
oh wells. hmm. i feel like changing blogskin.
but. i cant find a nice one. bleh.

thanks for today, the 7 of you!
great time to relax, and rejuvenate ourselves.

i shall totally enjoy myself, and relax myself, for the next 4 days, then await the results on monday.
sighs. i wanna. please. get out of. this house.
i dun mind going back to school.
actually, i kinda dun mind having the exams all over again.
cos. then. i dun have to bother about so many things happening at home.
now i kinda have to focus on the things. so. yeah.

time to start packing! packing for the 2 trips.
ladeeda. i still dunno wad to expect cos. its gonna be. winter. like. early and mid winter, and this girl here named cheng jie yi have never experienced winter before? haha.
yes im deprived.
lol. oh wells. i wanna still pack FBTs in. hee.

rawrrr. my Secret DVD just died on me. the file is EMPTYYY. poof. serve me right to buy MIC stuff. rawrrr. i shall go rent VCDs to entertain myself tmr. wanted to go tiffany's house tmr, but. its gonna be hard. so. yeah. im sorry.

this whole week of exams totally drained me.
even though i get slacker and slacker day by day.
yeps. im slowly getting back to where i started.
so. yeah. i dunno how im gonna survive Os next year.
just totally slack.
emath was a total killer today. sighs.
its over. RAWRR.
next week is lit, Amath, physics, and chinese.
yeps. 7 more papers to go.

KAP yesterday with Grace,
met Sarah Soon and bunch,
had some fun and got sabo-ed
yeah.

oh wells. end of the week
went caro's house for. a while? haha. oh wells.
totally slacked at her house. so fun fun.
counted her "tralalala"s like how i used to with Lipin's "fine"s
haha. came up with some random number and continued with it for the whole day.
lol. oh wells.

today sucked. sucked like anything.
is it the foreshadowing of the horrible weekend to come?
sighs.
enough F words said. enough curses and swears and vulgarities that escape my mouth.
im sick of it.
im sick of you not thinking. for me.
im sick of you trying to bring my hopes up, and just make them drop like a pile of cards.
i know. you've tried.
i know, sometimes, things arent in your control.
but you always try.
i know you're trying to do your best.
so am i.
so while im trying, stop expecting.
and i wont expect from you too.
then maybe just then, i'll stop getting disappointed.
im kinda glad i dont know the worst of the vulgarities. if not, _.
yeah. fill in the blanks.